Insomnia

My tortured soul won’t sleep a second, for it will roam the earth searching for a way to repair the damage I’ve inflicted on you. Only then will I be able to rest my eyes.

Those Eyes

What a fool I am, driven crazy just by a glimpse of those beautiful brown eyes
that somehow see down into the deepest parts of my oh so broken soul.
You are the truth I’ve been seeking my whole life,
the truth that has driven me mad from the moment I met you.
You were the realization that my half of a heart could not continue to beat without your sweet love to complete me.
Without it, I am simply me,
and that is not enough.

My Screaming Silence

The music thrives on silence

As I thrive on your love

As the sunshine will illuminate the darkness

You’ve enabled my heart to see that all I need is you

And just as the force of nature will remain

My mind will always be filled with thoughts of you

My eyes, stained with the imprint of your beautiful face

And my soul remains incomplete without you

 I love you sweet girl

And never will I love another

I'm sorry

The blood smeared across my body is simply a reminder of the pain I put you through

Of how your eyes gleamed in the sunlight making them at the least the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen

Of how my heart will never belong to another

And of how you will never love me

Dear God, let her know I’m sorry

Many tears will fall from my eyes for I have made the innocent weep

I have made the fragile fall

I have made the breakable broken

4 Small Letters

I try to forget

Try to forget all the anguish, the madness, the pain

All this wrapped up into a simple word called the past

Something with such complexity to only be made up of a mere 4 letters

But sadly that’s all you are to me at the moment

My past

The Portrait of My Open Heart

You’ve held the key to my locked heart

And now the door remains wide open,

Vulnerable to pain and rejection

I embrace the pain that I will call my sweetest Cara

You unlocked my heart with much ease as your face was to bear a smile so stunning

You came into me and walked right out

For I am nothing but an empty room to you
Bare and exposed, boring and cold

Sad Eyes

Oh beautiful Erin

White and fair

With the smile that warms my heart

And your tears that fell

Live long and prosper

That’s all I could come to say

But I’ll write you this poem in hopes your ok

I wonder where you are

If you’re smiling

What you’re thinking

So many unanswered questions

So many unspoken words

We’re not finished Erin

 Not even close

I can’t let you go

Never will I forget the way you watched me

Never will I forget how you looked at me with sad eyes the night I attempted to take my life

Never will I forget how you smiled and how in those moments your dimples had become the cutest thing my eyes have ever and will ever see

I won’t forget.

I can’t.

Sweet Dreams of You

My love for you incinerates inside of me, longing and yearning for the sweet sound of your voice to reach my ears.

Your words are sweeter than the sweetest of lullabies. For every time you speak I dream of all the things we could be.  <3